The Very First Night // Dress
natacha; 21; denmark - t follows - Reputation tour, Dublin, June 16th 2018
thinking….. about this is me trying being written about your past self rather than a significant other………. especially in terms of mental illness … “it’s hard to be at a party when i feel like an open wound / it’s hard to be anywhere these days when all i want is you” wishing the “old” you would come back so you could enjoy the things you’re supposed to….. “i’ve been having a hard time adjusting / had the shiniest wheels now they’re rusting” looking back at how you used to be vs how you are now, trying to live with a Bad Brain.. “they told me all my cages were mental / so i got wasted like all my potential” ……. “I was so ahead of the curve, the curve became a sphere / fell behind all my classmates and I ended up here” pour one out for my fellow previously academically inclined people who tied a lot of their self-worth to their scholastic success and now don’t know how to get it back and/or find other sources of self-worth ……….. “i just wanted you to know that this is me trying / at least i’m trying” i’m trying to be a functional person!!! i’m doing my best!!!!!
visiting your grandparents when you’re not a kid anymore is like. this place was magical to me as a seven year old. it looks like a normal house now. i can remember thinking there was something hidden in the garden. there’s a feeling buried here i may never be able to reach again.
I’m not even trying, I’m gonna wait to smart people to decode
*presses post*
*cackles maniacally*Level: casually cruel in the name of being honest
taylor said the level was expert but you guys literally decoded in 10 minutes 👁👄👁
LOVER + some of my favourite lyrics
Taylor Swift at the 2020 Golden Globe Awards

